2 years after graduate, what is my position

      2 years have elapsed since I graduated from the college. I only stay at this  field, right,logsitic~~~~well. when I was a student , many times I  imagined that I would be a foreign trade bussinessman. So I learnt English very hard, and read many books aboout foreign trade. Luckly, I passed BEC test. I thought I can be a foreign trade bussinessman  after graduate. But I was wrong, definitely wrong.
     I was chose by a logsitic company in Shanghai, that is my dream city, so I was also happy to be a logsitic sales. Cause I know , if you wanna be good at foreign trade, you should be wellknow logsitic. This is a wondful  memory during in Shanghai. But when my father was sick, was very sick, I knew I have to go back, back to my family. This is the duty for a son.
    At that time , I thought I can choose another field , maybe foreign trade. But my mother chose for me. A local logistic company, I have no choice. OK~~~the company is famous, the boss is kindly, coworkers is wondful, but I am still not a good sales. Maybe I just dreary this job. Change I need.
    Cause economic crisis , so many foreign trade companies are bankrupt. I do not know what can I do. What is my position. I usually feel that I am fail. I loose courage ,  to change myslfe bravely. I really wanna a different way, But I can not do that, not for myslfe , for my family , I should go straight .
    Well , I am so glad to find that guy. Yes , she can know me, for everything, I prey I can be stronger,and powerful for my family. God bless me~~~
    

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